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Monday, January 5, 2015

Police Says Man They Shot and Killed Left Suicide Note to Cops

Posted By on Mon, Jan 5, 2015 at 6:47 PM

Just when you thought this story couldn't get more disturbing, San Francisco police this evening released a suicide note penned by the man who they shot and killed outside the Mission Police Station last night. 

Officer Albie Esparza says that with the permission of the deceased man's father, police released the note which was a stunning confirmation that the 32-year-old man, who pulled a replica gun on officers last night, was hoping police would kill him. 

Police say during the investigation they found suicide letters on the man's phone, one that was titled “Dear Officer(s).”

Read the letter below:

“Dear Officer(s),

You did nothing wrong. You ended the life of a man who was too much of a coward to do it himself. I provoked you. I threatened your life as well as the lives of those around me. You were completely within your legal rights to do what you did. You followed protocols. You did everything right. I just want to find peace within myself. I am so sad and I am so lonely. There is no place for me here. Please, don’t blame yourself. I used  you. I took advantage of you. I am so lost and I am so hopeless. God made a mistake with me. I shouldn’t be here. Please, take solace in knowing that the situation was out of your control. You had no other choice. “

Police say that just after 5 p.m. on Sunday the man was loitering in a restricted parking lot of the Mission Police Station. When sergeants asked him to leave, he flashed what appeared to be a gun at them. Officers fired their weapons, killing the man. It was later discovered that the man had been carrying a replica gun.

A town hall meeting will be held by Chief Suhr on Tuesday, January 6, 2015, at 6 pm, at the Corner Stone Church 3459 17th Street, San Francisco, CA. 94110 . At the Townhall meeting Chief Suhr will release details about this ongoing investigation.  
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Erin Sherbert was the Online News Editor for SF Weekly from 2010 to 2015. She's a Texas native and has a closet full of cowboy boots to prove it.

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