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Monday, June 2, 2014

Ryan Chamberlain: Disturbing Note Posted on FBI Suspect's Facebook Page (Update)

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Ryan Chamberlain's whereabouts are not known; he is considered "armed and dangerous." - @POLIHOLIC
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Another update, 6:35 p.m.: The FBI has confirmed Chamberlain has been taken into custody. News outlets are reporting that FBI agents went to the Mad Dog in the Fog bar in the Lower Haight earlier today and questioned bartenders; they believed he might have been drinking at bars in the neighborhood. His car was later found at Crissy Field where he was arrested this evening.

Update: Ryan Chamberlain posts an online addendum, claiming no wrongdoing. See end of article.

"...This is the end of the line for me," reads note from political operative turned FBI fugitive

We wrote earlier about Ryan Chamberlain, the San Francisco political operative now the subject of an FBI manhunt, after explosives were purportedly discovered in his apartment following a raid.

Today a long note appeared on Chamberlain's Facebook page. The timing was automated via "a Hootsuite delay ... I wasn't around to stop it from posting."

The note begins ominously: "You're reading this. That means we probably don't know each other anymore and I owe everyone an explanation."

Chamberlain is considered "armed and dangerous" by the FBI. His whereabouts are unknown and, none too surprisingly, he hasn't returned calls and messages from SF Weekly.

In his note, he claims he's been suffering from depression throughout his life. He has experienced "dark moments" including "getting left out of the Newsom win" -- Chamberlain served as a field manager in Gavin Newsom's successful mayoral run in 2003.

This mental state wasn't helped, he continues, by poor luck in love and a succession of "half-ass job(s) that didn't work out." As such "my mental state got more stressed and more panicked. ... When 2013 came, it did me in. I've been fighting and fighting to get out of it.

" But it wrecked me. And it led to what happened today."

Chamberlain outlines a monthslong period in which "everything that mattered to me betrayed me." He claims his mother became a "religious addict," awaiting the Rapture, and building an "Apocalypse bunker." Then a woman he tabbed "The One" didn't return his affections. Regarding his unrequited love, he penned "I know this sounds like the trivial heartbreak whine of a 16 year old but I can't help it. This one got in my psyche and wouldn't leave." And he accuses his "oldest friend" of betraying him when he was let go from a job at Project Sport, a local marketing company.

While Chamberlain alludes to "what happened today" and writes "I'm sorry about this. I'm sure this will completely blindside you," he never goes into details. In a weekend scene ripped from a Hollywood film, FBI agents outfitted in HazMat suits smashed into his Russian Hill apartment. While they now refuse to confirm earlier accounts that the apartment contained large amounts of the toxin ricin, Chamberlain is accused of amassing explosive materials.

He insinuates this: He "scoured the Internet absorbing fuel for morbid fantasies. Some of that activity seemed to attract the attention of some visitors today" -- presumably FBI agents -- "who have made it rather evident this is the end of the line for me."

In the note, Chamberlain thanks women and other individuals he met -- "my Gator crew" -- for bringing light to his life. He claims to be out of money and "virtually unemployable" -- though "maybe something would have worked soon."

He concludes by thanking a woman named Amy: "In our two months, you've done so much to make my head right again. If not for today, I think I would have made it."

The missive ends darkly with an apology to Amy: "You're amazing and you deserve the best. Thank you for the weeks you've given me, but I hate that I met you at this time and this is what I brought onto you. I love you."

Update, 10:40 a.m.: Chamberlain just posted the following via various forms of social media:


Ryan Chamberlain letter

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Joe Eskenazi

Joe Eskenazi

Joe Eskenazi was born in San Francisco, raised in the Bay Area, and attended U.C. Berkeley. He never left. "Your humble narrator" was a staff writer and columnist for SF Weekly from 2007 to 2015. He resides in the Excelsior with his wife, 4.3 miles from his birthplace and 5,474 from hers.


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